Ok I have to start this by confessing that, since the twins were gone Ive gone through a strange hormonal disballance of motherly urge to adopt everything and everyone around that need mothering. Jeej!! (well now come to think about it, even at the XD I did adopt a japanese orfan named Koji........WE LOVE YOU KOJI!!!........ but that was while i was still pg.......this multicolored adopting seems to be in style among celebrities....heehee!)
Anyway that's beside the point right now. I was saying, about my hormonall disballance, that I took to adopting children of all sorts of shapes and sizes in order to try to fill that empty feeling ....starting with and entire group of seven polish children (alias: the samagirls, or samakids) followed by the Smakerell (alias: Fredrich, Pooch of love and affection, Chiquinini, Nuni, Shnitzell, and Arianne......she has many names and descriptions....) and a very large, black, brasilian, baby orfan.
Theres nothing that is so irresistable to a craving, hormonally'disballanced, mother robbed of her young, than someone that needs her mothering.
It wasnt always like this, at the beggining I have to admit we couldnt stand each other's guts. He thought I was mental, and I avoided him......he got so on my nerves.........
Then something happened, some breaking point in which I realised that what everybody needs is love and that love and patience are the key to every heart.
Anyway, during the whole time he was here i have to say I sort of took it upon myself to look out for him while he was here. When he leaves Ill miss him for sure.....its always hard when the babies fly away from the nest.
Ill miss just sitting and listening to him for hours on end, and listening some more, as he pours out his troubles and woes
Ill miss petting and kissing his bald head when hes frustrated and theres really nothing to say that will make him feel better
Ill miss putting him to sleep when he feels lonely
Ill even miss him when he was angry and sensitive over some corny harmless joke and is bawling me out over my teasing him and I have to just stay put to avoid further wrath (a soft answer turneth away wrath)
Ill miss him taking a turn to take care of me and putting me to sleep when I was alone and staying with me when i had nightmares
Ill miss listening to Bells of Michael Piano and the whole album over and over and over with him
Ill miss him bringing me special fruit from the market
Ill miss him getting overprotective and maybe a little possesive over his big mama.
Ill miss him being obnoxious and doing annoying things when he feels like he has to get my attention
Most of all Ill miss him needing me when The Lord takes him to whatever destination he has for him and gives him that long promised perfect wifey and family and promised land....but Ill be soooooooooo happy for him and Ill be praying for him till it happens................. AND after (knowing him, he might need more prayer then than now, heehee!!)
I love you Thiago, and like it or not, even when youre gone and forgotten me Ull still be by big black adopted baby.
